Tuesday, September 30, 2008
i don know y i hear le ur song i cry!!
Steph - Anyone going 7th Party? says:
Just a word of encouragement and its also a fact.. ur songs have been accompanying me the whole day almost everyday. When work becomes too boring and stressful, I will just listen to your CD and that just somehow makes me feel happier and work better.. :) Just thought to let u know the good work that God has work on me through you :)
read ur blog... got some feeling
u gave me an impression
though i do noe u in real person and i never listen abt ur show at 1003
..and all I can do, is hope and pray... cos Heaven knows.. says:
u r a true person who express ur feeling directly
i like true person and u indeed have done a great job
Sunday, September 28, 2008
My sunday was great thank you. We had class..
Was tired. Cos usually, I am late. And today, ALL my students were late. Anyways. It was fun.
So has anyone asked, what kinda person you are? Do we really know what kinda person we are then?
I have always known that it's either white or black in my life. Since young, I was being taught what is Good and what is Bad. It was like, I must do everything I do to the best. If not, then forget about doing it. But is life really like that? Should we be this way? Is being a high flyer a good attitude to life? Many times, my mum would say this to me, 'son, if you do not do well in your studies, no one can help you to do it.' If you had to do something not of ur choice in life next time, there is no one to be blamed but yourself. Back then, my family were not Christians. My mum only believed in Hardwork. She only believed in striving, aiming and making things happen. So is this right or wrong?
Now, we are Christians. And christians believe in Choice, and God has indeed planned for us. So, what now? Wait upon Him?
I have come to a conclusion, the thing is, some people have the talent in making things happen, some just follow, and others just watch. And it is all a link. Everyone is chained together despite u liking it or not.
One of my good friend today told me something. It was a realisation for me. Ever since I knew him, I felt that it was God who sent him into my life. And now, I felt I KNOW it is He who did it.
'Let God lead. Lets wait upon Him'
'Everything has a time to it'
'You are talented, everyone knows it but, do you know it?'
Have I been too hard on myself? I want to learn to give. And I want to learn to keep. Some people are just not worth it. I am not God. But I am learning. Let others have their chance to experience life. Cos I have mine to take care of. May You guide me. So that I know what I am doing is right. I love You.. My Lord..
Saturday, September 27, 2008
Mr. H, I really thank you. Your phone calls always come at a time I am at a loss, and I feel so much better after speaking to you. You are always able to give me another perspective to look at bad situations.
Happy 100 days!
It's really a great great blessing to know you guys. I am really touched by you guys' warm welcome and inclusion especially to a new member like me :D
Thank you for hearing me out and cheering me up at times when I am down, you guys are my source of encouragement.
Things changed quite a lot for me ever since I joined QYQL: Looking forward to Fridays, humming to the tunes written by talented friends I know of (haha got boost your ego or not), taking the courage to join Fightclub, etc etc etc.
If my life has been as plain as water, thank you for adding sweet flavours to it; if it has been as dull as a piece of plain paper, thank you for adding dazzling colours to it.
Cheers to our friendship!! :D
Love you all lots,
yes, love and care should be unconditional...
Kindness begets Kindness.. :) says:
and i am really grateful that you are so selfless in giving your love and care to us...
It is words like these that makes me smile. I just wonder sometimes, why I do the things I do? Oh well, I guess I am made this way for bigger things which God wants me to handle in life.
Today was special. QYQL family know each other for 100 days. And of course, our miss Avril is not back, therefore I wont put the song up until she is back. Cos I dont know how to .. Anyhow, some of us were tearing as it was really gan dong for many since pei shan thought of this idea. I was happy to help her fulfil it and there you have, the song 100Days.
I was just wondering, what does Jesus wants for me in QYQL... Is this it? Maybe this is a great programme, maybe not. Maybe it needs a break.. What do you think? To me, even if there were only 1 person listening to it, I am happy to do it. Though in practical sense, it is impossible since the radio station is not opened by me. When ever I see nice and great sms-es. I feel warmth. I feel that I have a purpose. It's like I am not just talking to myself. Thank you guys for the support.
I want to also thank the many who has given me another chance to know who I really am cos it is indeed very special for those who didnt really like me before maybe due to press but that they have heard me that they think otherwise now. Thank you...
I am also very happy that I have many loving and caring friends, you know who you are. Always there to support me and love me. I may not be the best friend you want, I will still try my best to brighten your days..
Thank you Jesus, for my family. I love my life. I love people who are sincere towards knowing who Hagen really is..
Friday, September 26, 2008
Thursday, September 25, 2008
Then I saw these 2 indian small boys. And one of them was crying. The other said, bro, dont worry, I will always be there for you. It was really surprisingly how a small boy can say such a thing. Anyways, then I asked myself, does everyone have someone to be there for them?
I am glad, very blessed to have my friends and family, God to be there for me all the time. I have kind people like PL who will just get water for me even when I didnt tell her to. I have beautiful people who does not seek or expect things from me like my supporters and they just hope to hear good songs and melodies from me...
Thank you guys.. you are the best you know...
I was very interested in music, performing ever since I was little. My whole 10 years, now 11, I have been very hardworking, trying my best to learn and experience many different style of music. I still remember, the very first time when Taiwan called me to congrade me for the first song I have ever sold. I was so happy.. So excited.
Now, I still do, and it is even more challenging. The thing about people knowing who u are.They now have higher expectation because they know what you can do... May the Lord help me with my writing so I will still focus on my goal...
As for singing. Performing is really something I love. My passion. I thank God that I have supporters like you all and I thank God that He is sending nice people into my life.. I Love you..
8pm I went to T3 to meet my friend. He is sending a friend off...
We had popoye chicken.. Ya very bad for my throat.. but its ok:) cos it was nice..
Conversation was nice. Nice people.. :)
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
Jacob Jacob Baby don't be shy
Say Jacob Jacob Baby don't be shy
Happy Birthday, Jacob
Do we have anyone that will remember our special days?
What is life? I'd like to think that life is only a temporary place for us to get to know the many nice people and achieve things we want to make this earth a better place...
Today, HK called me and told me Taiwan is not too happy with my recent fast songs. It seemed like they are not full. It felt like a wake up call. That I have not been putting as much effort as I did before. Lord help me.. It seems like when I am doing songs for You.. I dont really seem to have great feelings to write for others. Actually, even before that, I felt that my life is coming to a turning point. That God is changing some habits and routines I thought I cannot change.
Music is like an emotion. It has its ups and down in different parts of the song. Who dictates them though? You? Me? I guess it is very subjective... Isnt that the best way to explain it? Indeed. Then again. Is it a style we should change to fit into the liking of the companies or is it just something we should take it as a pinch of salt?
I want to do it because I know I need to. Not because of someone else.. Yes.. Thats correct..
Let me do nicer songs. That will touch and not just a tune that is impressive...
I love you Jesus
Monday, September 22, 2008
Anyways, It was great to have met up a friend for dinner. We had dinner at paragon. The Jap rest at the basement. Our conversation made me think alot. I felt really like i was having an interview with him cos his questions were 1 after another.. wow!
Then, I took the 20% voucher from R to buy the blue top I liked but didn't get yesterday at Ben Sherman.
At Tampines, I met TS and PS up. I went to get some Berms from Fresh BOX and then, we went to get some bookmarks. They chose the ones which were so pink I felt like I was out with hello kitty... Nice..
Then we went to Shop & Save and TS said.. 'looks like he is shopping himself'.... indeed, it felt like it cos I was buying and they were walking behind. lol. They were so surprised that I walked into Shop & Save. The thing is, everyone is human. So nothing to be too surprised ya. Maybe one day you might even see me in a wet market.. Selling yong tau hu.
We wanted to take a cab home and the queue was ever soooooooooooooo long. Then at the back of my head, I was thinking.. nvm la.. wait lor, no choice. Then the Taxi driver was shouting.. Pasir Ris anyone......... I went up and another lady did too. So I obviously gave the cab to her. BUT, the best part was, the taxi driver said wait, then he asked me: "where u going?" I said, "Pasir Ris.. " (Shits, now you all know where I stay) Nvm lah, anyways... we board the cab..
The first thing I said was, Praise The Lord. and the cab driver laughed and said praise the Lord too. It was obviously a God sent Cab!
I went home and Mr Yuan Yi called. Asked me to go Airport. So we went.. He was sharing with me his heart and his plans.. All good..
May the Lord bless us all so that we may be able to do even bigger things...
Question: Have you ever wondered? If you have been blessed, did you bless others too? Because taking is obviously easier than giving.. If so, are you giving enough?
To put it across nicely, I just really hope to see improvements in the people I know. The growth. There is great difference between not knowing, blur, silly, stupid, lazy, heck care and unwillingness. Which one are you?
People don't want to be the bad guy to tell people these things. Well, for me, I rather be the one telling as it is a form of encouragment and realisation for the one who is falling than to sit there and clap hands when bad things happen.
But how many will truly appreciate? Cry? Regret? Hate yourself? Or think that it is nothing. I don't give a damm?
Well, one should know that it is ur own life. You need to be accounted for and no one is going to help you. I pray that when I don't need to be the one saying to you again because you think it is bad at your side when it is worser on side. Why should I and who am I to do it? You should know better... Learn to be more alert. Who told you that life is just waiting for something to happen? Is wasting time your hobby?
Sunday, September 21, 2008
And you see what we have missed! So nice... I love the look of it.. It's like.. Carefree... U know, I was only recently looking through a friend's FB and saw some modeling pics of a female model.. I was wishing I had pics like that.. And when my sister showed me hers, It was like.. wow... Isn't it what I meant... Oh well... I guess I have to wait for miracles to happen...
You will, when u ...? Believe...
2 mini concerts we did. Both at different churches. I told God, how nice it would be if they knew how much You loved me and that You will love them very very much too. They are just like my brothers and sisters.
Today, A, PL, PS, TS, D, C, D and R came to study music.. It was very interesting to hear what they were sharing about. The passion for music in their own ways. And that who is really into it and who's not. Who really took it seriously and who not. Who was the one who thought hard before they came out with their homework. I must say, they all had talent. And if it was a talent that was taught in the right way, I am very sure something great will happen.
After which, we went to WOODLANDS! Lighthouse. My church.
Pastor Rony, was sharing about the financial flaws and the meaning of life. The first thing that came into my head was, wow, didn't I just wrote that on my blog recently? Indeed. the purpose of life is so impt.
My happiest moment was not about what we have learnt. It is that many are saved. Thank you LORD. Because You are the Truth, the Way and the Life.. The light of my life, that You have given me so that they may have this light too.
Lord my God. You are so wonderful. I pray that they will be the light of their family as they will be going to Heaven and not Hell below.
I Love You. I do....
PS, I can teach you everything I know, you may be grateful, you may not, but there is only one who can bring everything up and that is my Lord Jesus. Nothing can beat that.......
Friday, September 19, 2008
A friend of mine organized a concert - Music of the Spheres.
It will be performed by an award winning choir. They will be singing God’s praises.
All proceeds of this concert will go to Jesuits Refugees Services (JCR), Singapore.
Details of concert can be seen from attachment.
If you are keen to get the tickets, can contact me. Looking forward to your support!
Today is a Great Day...
Today is a Happy Day..
Today is a Lovely Day..
Today I want to make something happen..
Today I want to let good things happen..
Today I want it to be a meaningful day..
Today Today Today...
Today, I woke up and thought... It must be a great day. I had 35 sms-es... of which 5 were impt, 26 were good morning sms-es and 4 were just.... Um...... bo liao?
Anyway, I thank God, He has given me people who remembers me everyday they wake up.. I love you guys..
I looked out my window and everything looked the same as yesterday. What was different was myself. I am different from yesterday.. I am different from the day before. Everyday.. when you wake up, do u just drag urself out of bed, or tell yourself. Shit I m Late... BUT give me 5 more minutes... 5 will do.. okok 4.... okok... 2! Aiya. MC lah.
You know, The thing about life is this. We choose how we want to look at it. It is a choice. Always a choice. And how can the stress be lifted? Don't even think that the surroundings can do that. It's only temporary. Try from within.. Learn to accept and COPE. Dont run away from the matter. Have u realised why men likes to do the disappearing act? To run somewhere and hide? Or do something U dont know? Now too late after, its a divorce, its a hurt.. someone gets into trouble..
Face it.. dont run..
My friend told me... he wanted to die.. He has been crying for 2 weeks since.. and he is not getting better.. Loneliness is embracing him and he is feeling depressed.
Do we have to be like that? There is nothing wrong to feel that! If not, you are not human. And it is how and when u should snap out of it that is impt.... U know, I am soooooooooooo busy at all times and when I slow down.. I want to pace myself to look at the things around me and the people who needs more care than I do. Yes, I know, you might say, I am so tired of helping people and not having enough time for myself.. What so ever for? He also don't appreciate what! Does he? Do you realise, as we have this mentality, it shows that we are expecting.. We expect better in return. If not, at least say something nice...
Is expectation bad? No it isn't. If you don't expect, you don't get.. But is it something you can take it? If not, protect yourself. My father always says. 病从口入. Same things. Do things with a loving heart, a giving one, and dont expect something like, THE WORLD.
Then, another of my close friend said very nice things to me yesterday just before I went to bed. I felt like she has changed. To be a more positive person. Her exact words were.. I have learnt to be nicer to my family, and sister.. I want to be different and because something has happened in my life. I want to do things and not having to worry about what others would say.
Now, this is good attitude.. Just remember to smile in good and bad times..
Today is a great day... we must tell ourselves that..
Love is the key.. because when u give, even though u may think the others don't appreciate or saw it. You are right only by half.. He/she will know it because I know....
Thursday, September 18, 2008
After, I went to a dinner which I was 2 hours late because the pics had tobe edited and I need to finish a song for Yuan Yi Bro..
It was always nice to have friends around you dont you think? To be there for you and help you. Sometimes disturb you.. In my case, I have 7 of them...
Play hard.. study hard...work hard..Love hard...
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
Everything we say matters. Everything we say plays a part in our lives and future. When I was in the Uk, I see people always looking happy. The way they treat people and the way they uses language is different. When something goes wrong, they say.... hey, its ok. dont worry, you can do better next time. When something is done well, they are not stingy with their compliments.
When I came back here. For the first few weeks, I was not comfortable. The things people say and do is different. They tend not to tell their real feelings. If they like something really much, they say, ok lo.. If someone says nice things about them, they say, ya meh? ok lah.. So they say, its the culture? I say, it's a style, pattern that we must change.
Everything is about learning. Learning to be better. I always believe, if we don't like something, dont impose it on others. Similarly, if we dont like negative vibes. Dont say negative things. Nothing to do with being 'pandang'. Who likes to hear bad comments? Who likes to work or play with people who always tells us we r shit? Crap, worse, useless.... The difference between a constructive remark and nonsence is, you'll know when u look closely at the one saying it. If his/her life is what you would call a good one you want to be in..
The bible says, love your neighbour as like urself. It is true, we must and should always look at the good side of things n people. And we should always speak of nice, encouraging things.. Don't you want people to do that to u too?
The thing is. So what is good and what is bad. What is real and what's not? I have thought of this before. Why can't we just do what we want and my parents stop saying what they say. But I realised that if we did, then we will never be where we are today. When we were younger, we need guidence. When we grow older, we still do need it. It is not about how old we are, but the amount of experiences which will make us grow wiser. To know what our priorities are. Indeed, study hard and play hard. I never disagree with it. Ever. Cos that was what I did when I was younger. But what is even more impt is to know when to have a limit. If we have decided to play hard..it is very impt to know that we have already done all that we can to make our studies a 'worry-less' subject. At times, people fail to deliver because we tend to do things at the instance. We want things now! Right away.. Everything is about being quick. Just like fun.. Anything not fun we dont do. Just like work, or study. But U know what? It takes time for a seed to grow into a big tree. It takes effort for it to bear fruits. It takes care and love for it to blossom and have fresh beautiful fruits and all. So what u suggest we do to our lives? To live like everybody else? If they say go this way we go? If they say sleep we sleep? Play we play? Work we work? Or its all a pretence?
If you ask me, I'd say, life is full of choices, we need to choose wisely and know what our priorities are. If it is love, friends, whatever it is.. life still goes on right? Then we need to strike a balance. To do well in everything we do before we start playing. If it was a time of friendship we wanted to be in it... do what we had to do before we go into it..
I love my life now because I thank God I had my mummy to tell me what I had to do. I hope lesser people will experience the feeling of regret ... it is the worst thing cos TIME never fails to move...
Monday, September 15, 2008
Sunday, September 14, 2008
Saturday, September 13, 2008
Thank you for you Daddy.. Hugs..
Friday, September 12, 2008
Today, my mama and sister is going to Germany. I was upset with my sister yesterday. I learnt that to forgive and let go is the best way to both. Sometimes, quarreling will never sort things out. At times, when my friends tell me how unforgiving they are to their family... I ask myself. am i too like that? I realise that, we all are. We are afraid of giving. When we give, it means we feel for someone. But who doesnt? If like is just about receiving. who is going to be the giver....And yes, we might not be wrong. But shouldnt someone start first? It needs 2 hands to clap? But for now. I just want to reflect and realise my needs and purpose in life..
Enjoy ur holiday mummy and sis..
I love you Lord, because You first loved me. May the world be a better place so that we may know that You are the true and living God. I love you ..
Thursday, September 11, 2008
Anyways, my dear derrick is too busy, instead, I have helped him sing it... so anyways guys,if anyone of u wannaplay lantern with us this friday.. come on over...
PS so sad, no one buy me moon cake.. I wanna try the many many egg yokes and ice cream de.. sound taste real good ..
Sometimes, having a big laugh is really fun.. Hey guys, really love u all ....
And then, Avril sent us home, it was really nice of her.. (even though her bowling really needed improvement) Just like my english.
Today, I realise something, I am really indeed a very soft hearted person. I wan to see people grow and I wan to be a better person. I wish that we as humans can help each other grow and not put down..
Let there be more love..